Well, I'm a girl. Now I mean, not a week ago, and not through surgery - I got... god, i don't even know what happened, do I?
I was at the Latin dance - this whole thing about finding the Latino/a inside. Which would almost make sense if I was a Latina, now, but I'm as light skinned as ever. Just with breasts.
I don't know what happened, exactly. There was food and drink - i had a couple pink cookies, some soda - it looked sealed - and some gummies. So did a bunch of other people. All i know is, I lost track of time, and next thing I knew.... God, I'm biting my lip so hard it hurts, but. I just lost a chunk of time.
I woke up on my stomach, and there was this pressure on my chest, and everyone seemed to be looking at me funny, and... and i had breasts. I didn't feel anything down there, either, but I couldn't check until i got back - and it's gone. The clothes I was wearing already fit me better than ever, which is good, I guess, but their tightness in all the wrong places doesn't help.
My skin feels sensitive, too - not sensitive in the male cliche about girls feeling... about us girls being all built for sex. Just sensitive as in extremely uncomfortable, and only sometimes pleasant. My new parts are the worst, but all my skin feels like that, like someone rubbed it raw while I wasn't looking.
Maybe they did. I don't know how long I was out - I don't know why no one tried to wake me, or why they didn't chase me down and call me a freak. I'm half worried the shock is going to wear down, and they're just going to burst down the door, and my life is going to be over, and...
God, you probably all think this is just some sick joke, don't you? Maybe someone else does to! Guy thinks about doing the TG challenge that Iceman has, and suddenly he's a girl, just one big cosmic joke to complain about! My breasts hurt, my back hurts, i have breasts TOO hurt, and I'm not sure whether to be relieved or horrified that my body didn't really require all that much changing to look girlie. Hell, my voice probably didn't even change, I was too embarrased to tell Andrea or Millie, it wasn't until Kerina came that i just burst down and whimpered... I'm fairly sure she's going to enjoy this, and it... it....
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the ranting, and for the yelling. I'm sorry; I know I always say I'd probably adjust to something like this better than most people, and I wasn't lying - it's not being a girl that bugs me this much. I mean, it feels weird, and alien, and it's not at all like the stuff you see in half the comics - for one thing, I don't have half an urge to... do things to myself... But being a girl alone wouldn't be that bad, if I could change back. It would be a chance to explore,to learn something about my female friends, to grow closer to my big sis, Kerina, and maybe eve be a better writer. A better TG writer, a better female character writer, a better everything - you can't possibly learn enough in a few days, but a bit of insight can go a long way. I'd probably even be able to pass myself off as a girl well enough, according to my female friends.
What bugs me more is that I'm not sure I can get back, but even that I might be able to get over if there just wasn't so much uncertain... Is my life going to be over? Is anyone going to believe this? Who did it? I mean, I know Kerina and the rest might have a field day of "D'aw!" but I also trust them not to do something like this to me against my will.
So who did? Who's out there, treating my life like a toy, changing my gender, changing my clothes? Are they ever going to change me back? There's just so much I don't even know, and the one thing I do know is the thing that bugs me the most.
I glanced at my ID card before all this started - it had me there, as a girl. The name was Karen.... or maybe Kaitlyn... i only really remember the first too letters, and I'm afraid to check, honestly. I'm scared to death, because it's what I look like now. My hair is down to my shoulders, with a bit of curl, my face is softer, my hips are a little bit wider, my waist a tiny bit thinner, my already stuck out butt a bit more so... My body frame was already mom's, but now the body hair is gone. I don't miss the facial hair, honestly, but I don't look forward to shaving my legs, either... Other changes, too, of course.
What really freaks me out though, is the fact that my card's changed again. Am I going to wake up tomorrow as someone else?
Guys... I'm sorry for dumping this on, but I really just needed to write it down....
Any support you could give me right now would be really, really, appreciated...