I found the tampons.
It's... i've... um... been saying that all day, just like that, and it's still a struggle not to use any ellipses. It feels weird - saying it, I mean. Though the tampons take some getting used to, too. My stomach hurts, and my feet are a bit sore... don't know if that's connected, though. It hurts a lot.
I felt so self conscious during mealtimes, today. I'm terrified of going to classes tomorrow, like - like this! In a literally bloody period, in a skirt, with underwear i could have gone through life without knowing how to work!
Boys are always talking about "penis envy," or something, like it's such a great deal peeing standing up! Guess what! We could do it too! We just don't bother, because when ya think about it, it's not worth the bloody effort! All it does is make a mess - and you guys have a built in aiming device! What are you bloody complaining for! If there's anything we envy, it's not having to go through this stupid pain and these stupid... stupid...
God, I feel so stupid. Sorry.
I'm gonna go snuggle with my big sis - I know from the polls that some of you think it's her, but I just don't believe it... She's too good to me for that.
Even with everyone talking to me, everyone comforting me, everyone trying to tell me to get used to being a girl and go on a social life I no longer know ANYTHING about... she's the only one I really feel completely at ease with. :)